Wednesday, December 1, 2010

habis sudah~~~

hoho~ beban untuk study last minute untuk exam dah berakhir..hehee~ hm..tapi kena fikir FYP lagi ni..dui~~~ kena settle dulu ni barang sebelum bercuti sepenuhnya..dah mula cuti semester..tak terasa masa lalu dgn begitu cepat ya..tapi saya sangat suka semester ni sebab banyak pengalaman baru dikutip..hahaha~~~~ diharap dapat belajar dari kesilapan-kesilapan tu dan jadi better person..hm..tengah tunggu someone balik dari somewhere..diharap dapat bertemu at least once kalau itu takdir..tapi harap dapat jumpa lagi la..mungkin for the whole life? hehe~ okay..mata sudah layu..dengar balik lagu bunga citra lestari yang dulu-dulu punya memang nostalgik..tambah2 hujan kat luar..dingin..katil sudah memanggil-manggil la..okay have a rest..malam ni kena pegi kerja lagi..kena ada stamina sikit..kalau tak mesti kurang ceria dan seterusnya kurang shine..haha~ okla my blog..setakat ni saja ya saya conteng di muka u hari ni..len kali kalau rajin,kita conteng2 lagi k..lots of love~ mwuahhh!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

it is...

It's so good to know that you have someone who'll be willing to help you cope up in every frustrations you're having. Every depressing moments, every down moments, every self-worthless-realization moments, he'd be there, not because you want someone to be with you, but because he wants to be with you.

It's great to know when a person appreciates every little thing you do. Even a smile would mean a lot to him, just because you own that smile. And that even if no words are expressed as long as the eyes understand, you'd be able to communicate, just like that.

It's overwhelming when a person tells you that he loves you for who you are. He may not have an answer when you ask him why, but really, he doesn't have to have reasons for loving you.

It's more grateful to know that someone is grateful to have you. We don't choose the people who enter our lives, so it must be luck that you have that person, then you have to be thankful. It may just be coincidence or fate, but whatever the reason is, you have to be thankful in having him the same way he is thankful for having you.

It's a wonderful feeling when you're on the verge of giving up the things you've worked hard for, someone isn't just helping you carry the weight on your shoulders, but he carries it on his own because he'd also be in pain when you are in pain. And then you'll realize, trials would all be worth it as long as you have him, not because he would do things for you, but because you gather all the strength you need, in him and his love.

It's a superb feeling when one is willing to take the risks just so you'll be happy. Unselfishness rule in him just so happiness would take over you.

It's a nice feeling that when you're apart, and days seem to be long, that person misses you. Yes, you might feel bad about not being with each other, but knowing that you feel the same way would drive those blues away, thinking, you'd fight over that feeling because you're looking forward to seeing each other, and that's something to be happy about.

It's a great feeling when he wants to be with you because of the happiness you have when you're together. That even if corny jokes and senseless stories are told, it won't matter as long as you're together.

It's a lovely feeling when someone thinks about your future, with or without him. He cares and he cares enough to think of you and what you'll be someday. But of course, he also wants to be in it someday.

It's a nice feeling when you can be who you really are with that person. No pretentions, no lies, no hypocrisy, because he accepts you for who you are. You can be funny, you can be embarrased, but it won't matter coz it doesn't matter to him. Trust and faith in each other keeps you alive. And it will always do.

It's good to know that you have someone who'll not have the intentions of breaking your heart. Instead, he would be willing to mend it, picking up the broken pieces of your heart that your past love have scattered in the ground. He may not be able to put the pieces back to where they really belong, but you shouldn't mind, because he had repaired that heart of yours, and he fixed it in his own way. He loves you in his own way, not the way your past did. He fixed your heart in a different way, to keep you from feeling the pains of your past heartache and to make you feel, the love, that he's unselfishly giving.

It's a great feeling when that person has every effort to let you feel what he feels for you. Because of the distractions, you may not hear him shout it to the world, but as long as you feel it, his efforts has paid off, big time. And when you feel the same way too... He'd feel as if he's the luckiest person alive.

... when in fact, you're more blessed to have him.

Monday, November 22, 2010

bukit belukar~



cheers~












nyum2..sate ot-ot..














the youngest one..

bukit belukar..
some of us..ada 37 of us actually..
hm..i kena jadi emcee kejap..
hoho~pakai payung lagi..takut sunburn you~

Report:
hello blog ku yang dh nk bersawang ditinggalkan oleh ma'am nya yg 'busy' jak..hehe~ hm..nak conteng apa ya? owh..i got story..ni pasal picnic kat sekayu yg bertukar jadi picnic kat bukit belukar..sebabnya?? sekayu tu ditutup untuk sementara waktu sebab jabatan kesihatan nak buat ujian kat air sungai tu..hm,guard tu cakap pasal penyakit 'kencing tikus' la..then dia suggest us pergi bukit belukar..we never been there..tp alang2 dh sampai jauh2,pergi jak la kat sana..about 15 minutes from sekayu.. then i was very shock coz the river was wider and better than sekayu..just the facilities was not so satisfied us..the toilet didn't have water and cannot function at all..xda sinki mcm kat sekayu..mcm kawasan terbiar..sampah x dibuang..dui~ potong betul.. tapi xpa,yang penting kita enjoy dulu..mmg x sabar la nk mandi..geram tengok sungai tu..tapi before that,we have to accomplish the tentative first..we got short slot of praise and worship and bible sharing..then start BBQ~ kita ada sate ot-ot tau..haha~ dan ayam pada yang allergic dgn ot-ot ni..then makan2..pastu mandi time!!!! wow~ aku pun pa lagi..terus menerkam ke arah sungai!! arus sungai tu deras jugak..i sikit lagi nak hanyut tau..tapi i kuat!! haha..sungai tu ada part yang cetek dan dalam..bila dh sampai kat tempat dalam..i pun start swimming..try my skill masih bole pakai ke tak..hehe~ we had fun there~

then slot game pulak..kita main passing2 belon air..group i dpt no.2 utk game ni..then the next game kitaorg lost jak..tiup tepung cari gelang getah,then pertandingan makan2..masa nak start game ni dh start hujan..tp mcm supporting jugak la hujan pun mula berhenti bila kita org nk men game..hoho~ lepas settle semua,around 4pm balik..

hm..satu part sebelum pg picnic ni,we have to stay at chapel's house..senang ckit nk gerak pagi2 nya kan..then terjadi la satu incident...kereta yg disewa oleh adik i kena samun..taktik penyamun tu,pecahkan tingkap kereta then take everything inside..beg pakaian dia untuk stay dh kena kebas..dan paling menyedihkan..my camera yang adik i pinjam...lesap jugak..adoi~ hm..memang spoil mood nak pgi picnic utk keesokan hari nya..tp pastor i cakap,kalau x hilang yang tu,mcm mna nk dpt yg baru??hehe~ then i feel relief a bit..harap2 dapat camera baru la lepas ni...and moral of the story..jangan tinggalkan beg dalam kereta..nanti kena samun..masa buat lodge report..sempat lagi kena 'lecture' dengan uncle polis tu..huhu~ tapi xpalah..yang penting picnic esoknya..hoho~

*report for bukit belukar on 17th november 2010.. hehe~

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Saturday, November 20, 2010

i wish i can fly~

hehe~ i wish i have a pair of wings..so that i can reach my sunshine..i would like to smear my face with the wind..nothing but winds that make me floating in the air..just like a dust drift away with the beautiful eastern winds heading to western and reach the mountain of happiness that it long for every breath that taken.. can't compare to the longing of the star....

Thursday, November 18, 2010

freak~

yeah~ life must go on..well..i am being play by colourful of emotion this lately. hit by the thunderstorm, kiss by the wind. world seem getting cruel to me..but then i have to bear it till i can't see the vision. sounds freak but tell me what's wrong with world? and ask me,how to conquer the thunder without being hurt and still got moon behind the dark heavy cloudy?? get off and vanish..

Sunday, November 14, 2010

wrong time~

omg~ its coming just right on wrong time!!! i thought i am going to enjoy myself to the fullest in that waterfall later..but its all because of you i am disable on that moment later..huhu~ help me..hm, nevermind i just jump into the water..they wouldn't know right? hehe~ well my reader(aiseh bajet byk reader baca post aku la ni,pada hal diri sendiri jak yg balik2 tgk blog ni..kuang3~ so what?biarlah i perasan sorang2 kat sini..hikhik~ terasa diriku begitu gediks ;p) oh..apa td ya saya mau cerita??? hm yeah~ actually my church's youth club is going to have retreat at sekayu waterfall park. and i am very excited about it(even it have been many time already going there,but this is going to be the once in a while in terms of this semester,hoho~) i imagine myself drifting and swimming and skin diving at the river this lately..but suddenly i got that japan flag attack my territory area and i have to be in quarantine but i am not going to because i am going to use antidote that make me able to escape from the miserable zone..hoho~ sorry if my words is like hurricane looking for a place to be destroy(my own dictionary of proverb ;p)
so what's the moral of the story? just enjoy yourself~ cheers!!! ^_^

Thursday, November 11, 2010

:::...perih...:::

Bila hati menangis..

Mutiara mata setia mendakap

Bantal lembab mata pun sembab

Jiwa meronta hati terhiris


Semua berpasir bila ditelan

Air manis tiada lagi perasa

Hanya sebak dirasa sehingga ke hujung rongga

Semua deria rasa tiada perasaan


Rasa ingin saja menerajang si durjana

Tapi kasih menghalang segala

Tunggu saja nanti akan kau terima

Sesuatu yang sama tapi berbeza

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

polos~

salah aku kah bila tidak meresponi?
bukan mengungkit tapi sekadar meneropong kaca hati
tinta hidup bagaikan pencoret dakwat menari
mewarnai kanvas yang kian usang dengan kirana dunia
kerana selumbar benang yang putus seluruhnya disisih

bila lagi mau meniti sepi?
jika bukan diri sendiri merintis yang kelam
yang jernih tidak mau dikaup tapi yang keruh diteguk rakus
bukan sengaja melapah hati yang berkaca
tapi suram yang berkabus menutup silau

kemanaku mau mengikir segala yang berduri?
hanya mampu menanti sang pengarang takdir
menitip angin dan mendung semalam
sampai ke noktah akhir tiada berjela
kerana bahtera yang bertandang tidak bersauh.


Monday, November 8, 2010

doubts whether He really exist or just another fairytale?

sometimes my other side keep asking me, is He really exist? then why keep His people suffering and why He keep us on earth?why don't just living together with Him in the heaven?why got hell?why let evil freely around?why got so many version(religion) of Him on earth?His people keep confusing and argue with each other,who is right,and others is wrong. claiming that they are in the truth and right way. till when this will going on? i am not a perfect soul but sometimes i am not so agree with His way on conduct His people. but still, who i am to argue Him? He know what he is doing and me,just wondering and sometimes complaining what He will do next? and sometimes i hate the phrase, be thankful on whatever condition that He put on you,whether its good one or hurt one. but again, i am just His daughter who are not perfect and just looking for Him when i feel misery. sorry Papa..forgive me for my weaknesses,thousands of mistakes and doubtness.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

boost up your soul~

"He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:29-31)

tidak suka minum air putih?

ramai orang jarang minum air putih. padahal kurang cairan boleh datangkan banyak kesan buruk pada tubuh. air putih yang bersih adalah komponen penting untuk proses detoksifikasi dan melancarkan fungsi organ-organ tubuh.air juga membantu memusnahkan zat-zat yang tidak diperlukan oleh tubuh dan untuk proses penyucian sisa zat dalam usus.

jadi cuba mulakan rutin minum air putih sebanyak 2 liter sehari. dalam tempoh sebulan keadaan organ tubuh akan jadi lebih baik. metabolisme tubuh juga akan jadi lebih lancar =)

sebenarnya tidak susah untuk sukakan air putih. mulai hari ni, cuba kurangkan minuman berwarna atau bergula. paksa diri untuk sentiasa minum air putih. mulakan dengan segelas kecil dan minum dengan kerap tanpa perlu tunggu waktu haus. tambahkan jumlahnya setiap hari. jus buah segar tanpa gula juga adalah pilihan terbaik. jangan lupa untuk tambahkan pengambilan buah-buahan seperti epal, nanas dan limau.
(sumber dari majalah RAPI edisi 1 NOV 2010)

like the other days~

hari ni bangun lambat lagi. mmg selambat-lambat yang bole. dui~ banyak assignment lagi nk kena settle even the final exam is just around the corner. tapi saya masih ada kesempatan lagi mencoret dan merapu-rapu kat sini. muahaha~ selamat menikmati hari sabtu. eh, atmosphere around the hostel is like just after the war end. so silent...you can hear the sound of cengkerik singing here. neway i love this atmosphere coz its more serene and calm. hate the noisy. okay, full stop. mari kita main puff2..hoho~~~~

Friday, November 5, 2010

hoho~

bestnya swimming malam2..walaupun sejuk tapi bila masuk air kolam tu..excited sungguh!!! thanks luna hera cause invite us. len kali nk lagi la pergi..hehe~ tapi x sempat taking a picture sebab semua orang excited mandi kolam tu. so xdala gambar..huhu~ tapi kan suddenly its raining and we have to change our clothes and goback. kacau betul la hujan ni. tapi kami sangat seronok..haha~

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

cuti-cuti malaysia travel fair~

i love these ladies..easy to work with and they are lovely. thumbs up ladies!! looking
forward to work with you all again in the future~ ^_^











*sherly,maxy,me,pija(from left) ;)
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hee~

hm..a nice pose with nice costume. credit to dean dang. love to be in ur lensa again in the future ;)
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testing~


hm..just to test the picasa. easier to upload using this picasa to my blog. its even faster. hee~ okay..sleep~
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nature~

a fish. and i am sleepy~ good night..
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its beautiful~



never seen a toilet like this before..its like toilet in the forest. the interior space was decorate by the nature beauty of wild plants. when you enter this toilet you can feel the serenity of the forest. seriously~ and this unique space located in the shopping mall at johor (sorry i forgot the name =,='')
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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

i am useless??

i feel useless and not worth for living. people around me will affected. so i am very pity of them because they managed to have some slot of their life with some sort of people like me.
=,="

Monday, November 1, 2010

so here i am again~


then she walk through the flow with her mask. everything looks fine but at the bottom there's a turbulence that spinning inside. she couldn't share it but someday the spring with beautiful sunshine will come and everything seem like how it should be.







*hm..i wish i can be like that butterfly,just live on earth to freely fly and add some part of the beauty of the nature.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

what a good day~

hm..just finish having my laboratory test. and its like sucks! huhu~ can't answer all of it. i give up and go back early. its really ruin my day,but its ok. He said,be thankful in any circumstances.. so thank you..

Saturday, October 2, 2010

hm..azam baru kali ni mau update blog at least seminggu sekali. harap-harap tercapai la. kali ni secara pasti saya pasti tidak akan lupa password saya. sebab??? hehehe~~~~ mana bole bagi tau. nanti ada yang akan hack blog saya pula. hee~
it is just another day with beautiful shine of sun and me myself be thankful for what it is and who i am now.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

beautiful day~

everyday was a beautiful day. i am glad because still breathing on this awesome land with all the creatures that God have create for me and you.(n_n) so this is more like thanksgiving. everyday is a thanksgiving day,as every breath are taken in and out.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

a beginner again~

bukak blog baru lagi sbb yg lama dh lupa passwordnya(dsbbkn dh lama x update,teehee~)